I’m fairly active on my social media, I post less than I used to, but I still like to check in what everyone else doing, send likes, comments, that kind of thing. One thing I am horribly guilty of is ‘hate following’. I follow a couple of people I really don’t like very much and I really shouldn’t follow them because their posts on insta and faceook really annoy me, and I know they really annoy me, and I still find myself glued to their updates.

I’m not going to share what the updates are, for sake of being found out, (which I realise makes me weak and two faced) but I can’t stop following them.

Someone I’ll go an watch an update more than once, or find myself trawling back through their insta history and I really don’t know why. Part of me wonders if it’s actually jealousy, that they have something in their lives I don’t, but I’m not convinced it’s that.

The update themselves are never revelatory in anyway, they’re in fact pretty mundane day to day stuff, never anything controversial; sometimes they’re a bit wordy, and sometimes I feel the person is being overly smug, or humble bragging.

Moving on, I’m going to try to not follow them anymore, to see if it improves my mental health. I don’t think at the moment it has a detrimental effect on my mental health, but you never know.

So here’s to stopping being petty and growing up. I’m in my bloody 40s for FFS.